[That really is what it comes down to. Dipper wrapped him self up again in his self-imposed personal responsibility, and made himself make a difficult choice when he shouldn't have had to at his age. While killing Cynthia had often been lauded as the correct choice, it still had no business being put in his hands. The same could be said of Julia's fate, too.]
[Hearing Stan admit the reason he couldn't do it- of course he couldn't, because Stan was that kind of person, wasn't he? That maybe he'd related to her more than anyone else in their family. It makes sense having it spelled out like that. Maybe he could have heard it sooner, but he's happy to hear it now, and it's startling just how big that feels.]
[It's okay for him to walk away from that choice. That fear he has of the choice becoming too easy for him, that he'll lose the weight of having to make that choice, doesn't have to come to pass because it simply shouldn't be his responsibility to begin with. It's okay.]
[A feather slips from his hair ...and then another. Dipper feels a storm of emotions that feels so much bigger than he is suddenly, grief for something he's been holding onto for years. He just simply can't hold it together any longer, and he finds he just doesn't want to anyway. It's just the two of them here. ]
[He chokes out the sob finally, something ugly and loud, while the upset tears just flow unbidden. Siffrin may have been the one to put the crack in the wall, but the dam is good as gone now.]
It wasn't fair-
[He says it between sobs, like a truth he's only just now uncovered.]
cw: suicidal ideation from an NPC
[Hearing Stan admit the reason he couldn't do it- of course he couldn't, because Stan was that kind of person, wasn't he? That maybe he'd related to her more than anyone else in their family. It makes sense having it spelled out like that. Maybe he could have heard it sooner, but he's happy to hear it now, and it's startling just how big that feels.]
[It's okay for him to walk away from that choice. That fear he has of the choice becoming too easy for him, that he'll lose the weight of having to make that choice, doesn't have to come to pass because it simply shouldn't be his responsibility to begin with. It's okay.]
[A feather slips from his hair ...and then another. Dipper feels a storm of emotions that feels so much bigger than he is suddenly, grief for something he's been holding onto for years. He just simply can't hold it together any longer, and he finds he just doesn't want to anyway. It's just the two of them here. ]
[He chokes out the sob finally, something ugly and loud, while the upset tears just flow unbidden. Siffrin may have been the one to put the crack in the wall, but the dam is good as gone now.]
It wasn't fair-
[He says it between sobs, like a truth he's only just now uncovered.]