[That little warning about going inside definitely had more than one meaning, though he kind of knew it would be hard for him to dissuade Stan from wanting to know more. He'd agreed to this anyway, when he decided to open up about his corruption, and ignoring it when he's already showing signs would be more than just irresponsible, anyway.]
[So rationally, this is what should happen, it just hurts and Dipper wants to swallow it all down until it goes away, but he can't.]
[Seeing it the second time somehow makes it hit harder and that might be why he's threatening to fall apart. There's so much eating at him that he didn't even realize. He's afraid of becoming desensitized to horror, he's afraid he'll turn into someone he can't recognize, he's afraid of not keeping his shit together will make people look down on him, he's afraid of being left behind, he's afraid of disappointing Stan, and he's-]
[Stan suddenly has them face-to-face and that admission takes the air out of his lungs all over again.]
[It's true ...he never did find out what Stan did. He knew that Ford had done it, but somehow...]
...I did.
[He escapes him, barely. His voice making it clear he's still trying to hold it back.]
And I think about her every time I close my eyes- Grunkle Stan, I don't want to do this again.
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[So rationally, this is what should happen, it just hurts and Dipper wants to swallow it all down until it goes away, but he can't.]
[Seeing it the second time somehow makes it hit harder and that might be why he's threatening to fall apart. There's so much eating at him that he didn't even realize. He's afraid of becoming desensitized to horror, he's afraid he'll turn into someone he can't recognize, he's afraid of not keeping his shit together will make people look down on him, he's afraid of being left behind, he's afraid of disappointing Stan, and he's-]
[Stan suddenly has them face-to-face and that admission takes the air out of his lungs all over again.]
[It's true ...he never did find out what Stan did. He knew that Ford had done it, but somehow...]
...I did.
[He escapes him, barely. His voice making it clear he's still trying to hold it back.]
And I think about her every time I close my eyes- Grunkle Stan, I don't want to do this again.